Life Check

I was told on sat that I am a person that ppl find it hard to approach.

Woh... ....

Ok, I have been suspecting it for a long time now. And on hindsight, the signs were rather clear.

But what was even more scary was after a short discussion w her, realised a few things:

1) I am hard to approach cos I'm not myself most of the time when I'm w ppl

2) I am not myself cos maybe I dun really like myself.

Woh... ...

This is not a whingeing post!! Its almost more like a discovery post! I mean, I am really curious to know the characteristics and behaviours I display to push ppl away, behaviours that make me seem cold and aloof.

It wld be soooooo helpful!

Joa

P.S. Be honest, i really dun mind! :)

Going back in one circle

Woh...

On the tram today, I pulled out a book Joyce got for my birthday last year. It was called 'Winning With People' by John C Maxwell. It is such an interesting thing that a book that could have helped me SOOOOOO much this year was laying right under my nose all this time.

Obviously, all the principles and knowledge contained in that book would not have been the be all and end all of my leadership development in my term, but it sure would have helped me navigate through the complex world of team and human dynamics.

But I digress, what's interesting is that sometimes, you don't have to go all out to exotic places (and people) to look for the answers that you want to certain situations in your life. Sometimes, the answers ya looking for is right under 8 other books on the top left hand corner of your built in wardrobe.

Sometimes, the happiness we're looking for isnt in material things, in achievement of a goal, or even in a person or group of persons. Sometimes, we already have all we need to be happy, its just maybe, people, a goal or material things may be blocking your view to realise that you already have the happiness you need. All ya need to do is to look back and evaluate what you already have and suddenly, you stumble upon the anwser ya looking for.

Hmph... Yes. Smile people.

From Feeling Good To Feeling The Food

Hi yo!

It sucks when ya good week ends in a not so good weekend. This week has been not bad, made new friends, caught up with friends over meals and outdoor sports, learnt to drive, got some success with the AIESEC project i'm trying to do. So all in all an alright week.

So irritating that it had to be topped off with one of the worst nights of my life (physically at least). After getting home home last night from the church's kid's ministry, it was a normal meal and then cos I was sooooo tired, i headed to bed after that. Little did i expect that I'd wake up at 1am, 2am, 3.15am, 5am to excruciating abdominal pains!! With a slight fever and body aches to top it up, I think this is what they call stomach flu. It was so bad, i think i nearly fainted so many times last night. OMG!!

After the last 5am episode, I rushed to under my blanket (forgot to say that each pain episode was accompanied by a trip to the toilet) and closed my eyes as tight as i could. Slept pretty much through the morning and woke at 12pm. I called my Pastor and ask permission to skip the kid's service today, could not see myself being a positive presence to the kids today. Kids go: " Hi Joa!!" I'll go: "Yeah...., whaddya want..." hee.... : (

Being sick and staying by yourself really makes you miss the times when ya were young and your mom attended to you with medicine and wet sponge baths. Ahhh... makes me feel nostalgic just thinking abt that. I remember when my Dad would bring me his 'very effective!!' chinese medicine (bitter as hell too). I hated it then, now I miss it. Hmmm....Staying away from home, you miss so much of these little homely perks. Or my brother (yes, my brother can actually be kind sometimes... usually when the moon is of a bluish shade) bringing me fish porridge that he bought. Ahh...

Well, I kinda feel better now, just really dranined. Still so much work to get thru. Can anyone do a budget??

Joa